I'd lived for and I wanted to throw it all away

When a volunteer firefighter drives his car into almost certain death during the worst fires in Australian history, he does it because he ‘has a job to do’. Three months later, the fires are out but his nightmares are just beginning. What’s tormenting him, however, isn’t the memory of flames. Turning a sensitive lens on the unprecedented devastation of Australia’s Black Summer bushfires, from a country-wide emergency to the astonishing stories of help that emerged.