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I just feel like there's so many things that I could be doingand probably wanna be doing that I'm just notWhy aren't youI mean I guess it's just being afraidof what people would think you know

I don't know, I guess, I feel comfortable

Boyhood • 2014

Mason:
I just feel like there are so many things that I could be doing and probably want to be doing that I'm just not.Sheena:Why aren't you?Mason:I mean, I guess, it's just being afraid of what people would think. You know, judgement.Sheena:Yeah. I guess it's really easy to say, like I don't care what anyone else thinks. But everyone does, you know. Deep down.Mason:I find myself so furious at all these people that I am in contact with just for controlling me or whatever but you know they are not even aware they are doing it.Sheena:Yeah. So, in this perfect world where no one is controlling you. What's different? What changes?Mason:Everything. I mean, I just wanna be able to do anything I want, because it makes me feel alive. As opposed to giving me the appearance of normality.Sheena:Whatever that means.Mason:I don't think it means much.Sheena:You are kinda weird, you know that?Mason:Yeah? Is that a compliment?Sheena:I don't know. Do you wanna be weird?Mason:I mean, I don't wanna scare kids at the park, or anything like that.Mason:I really like talking with you. I don't usually even try to like vocalize my thoughts, or feelings or anything, just I don't know it never sounds right. Words are stupid.Sheena:So why are you trying with me?Mason:I don't know, I guess, I feel comfortable

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I just feel like there's so many things that I could be doing

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and probably wanna be doing that I'm just not

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Why aren't you

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I mean I guess it's just being afraid

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of what people would think you know judgment

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Yeah I guess it's really easy to say

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like I don't care what anyone else thinks but everyone does

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You know Deep down Exactly

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I find myself so furious at all these people that I'm in contact with

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just for controlling me or whatever

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But you know they're not even aware they're doing it

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Yeah

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So in this perfect world where no one's controlling you

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what's different

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What changes Everything

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I mean I just wanna be able to do anything I want

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because it makes me feel alive

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as opposed to giving me the appearance of normality

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Whatever that means

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I don't think it means much

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You're kinda weird you know that

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Yeah

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Is that a compliment I don't know

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Do you wanna be weird

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I mean I don't wanna like scare kids at the park or anything like that

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I really like talking with you

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I don't usually even try to like vocalise my thoughts or feelings or anything

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Just I don't know It never sounds right Words are stupid

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So why are you trying with me

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I don't know I guess I feel comfortable

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اشعر ان هناك امور كثيرة باستطاعتي فعلها

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وارغب بالقيام في فعلها لكني لا افعل

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لم لا

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اعتقد اني اخشى رأي الناس

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من حكمهم نعم

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اظن انه من السهل القول

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لا ابالي برأي اي شخص اخر

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لكن الجميع يبالون اتفهم قصدي بالضبط

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في اعماقهم

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اجد نفسي استشيط غضبا من كل الذين اتعاطى معهم

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بسبب سيطرتهم علي او ماشابة

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لكنهم لا يدركون حتى انهم يفعلون ذلك

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نعم

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اذن في هذا العالم المثالي الذي لا يسيطر فيه احد عليك

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ما هو الاختلاف الذي سيحدث

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كل شيء

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اريد ان اكون قادراعلى القيام باي شيء اريده

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لانه يجعلني اشعر باني حي

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بدلا من ان يجعلني ابدوا بانني طبيعي

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ايا كان معنى هذا

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لا اعتقد انه يعني الكثير

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انت غريب بعض الشيء اتعلم هذا

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حقا

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هل هذا اطراء

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لا ادري هل تريد ان تكون غريب الاطور

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لا اريد ان اخيف الاطفال في المنزل اوشيئا من هذا القبيل

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يروق لي الكلام معك

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لا احاول عادة التعبير عن افكاري

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او مشاعري او اي من هذا القبيل

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لا ادري فهي لاتبدواسليمة ابدا الكلمات سخيفة

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اذن لماذا تقوم بهذا معي

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لا اعرف اعتقد اني اشعر بالارتياح

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En fait y a tellement de choses que je pourrais faire

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et que je voudrais sûrement faire

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mais que je fais pas Pourquoi pas

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Bah c'est que

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C'est par peur de ce que pourraient penser les gens

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De leur jugement Oui

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Et tu entends toujours dire que

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qu'on se fiche de ce que pensent les autres

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mais c'est pas vrai tu sais En réalité c'est pas vrai

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Des fois je suis si furieux tu sais

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parce que tout le monde qui m'entoure

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j'ai l'impression qu'ils

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qu'ils veulent me contrôler constamment

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Mais eux ils savent même pas qu'ils font ça

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Ouais

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Alors dans un monde parfait où personne ne te contrôle

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qu'est ce qui est différent

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Qu'est ce qui change Tout change

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Parce que je veux pouvoir faire tout ce que je veux

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pour pouvoir me sentir en vie

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Et non pas pour donner l'impression

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de la normalité

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Je sais pas ce que ça veut dire

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Ça veut pas dire grand chose

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T'es un peu bizarre tu le savais

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Oui

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C'était un compliment

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Je sais pas Tu veux être bizarre

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Je veux pas je veux pas faire peur aux enfants

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ce genre de choses

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J'aime parler avec toi

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D'habitude j'essaie même pas d'exprimer mes pensées

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ou mes sentiments tu vois

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C'est que ça sort pas comme ça devrait

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Jamais C'est stupide

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Alors pourquoi tu parles avec moi

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Je sais pas Parce que je me sens à l'aise

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Ich denke einfach es gibt so vieles was ich machen könnte

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und auch machen will aber ich tue es einfach nicht

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Warum nicht

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Wahrscheinlich habe ich Angst davor was die Leute denken würden

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Eine Verurteilung Ja

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Man kann leicht sagen Mir egal was andere denken

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aber keinem ist es egal Genau

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Tief im Inneren

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Ich bin so wütend auf die Leute mit denen ich zu tun habe

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weil sie mich kontrollieren oder so

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aber sie merken nicht mal dass sie das tun

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Ja

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In einer perfekten Welt in der dich keiner kontrolliert

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was wäre da anders Was verändert sich

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Alles Ich will in der Lage sein alles zu tun was ich will

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weil ich mich dann lebendig fühle

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statt den Eindruck von Normalität zu erwecken

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Was immer das bedeuten mag

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Ich glaube nicht dass es viel bedeutet

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Du bist echt schräg weißt du das

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Ja

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Ist das ein Kompliment

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Ich weiß nicht Willst du schräg sein

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Ich will keine Kinder im Park erschrecken oder so was

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Ich rede gern mit dir

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Meistens versuche ich gar nicht meine Gedanken oder Gefühle auszudrücken

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Ich weiß nicht es klingt nie richtig Wörter sind dumm

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Warum versuchst du es bei mir

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Ich weiß nicht Ich fühle mich wohl

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Aku hanya merasa ada begitu banyak hal yang bisa kulakukan

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dan mungkin ingin mencoba melakukan hal yang tak kubisa

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Kenapa tak kau coba

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Kurasa itu karena rasa takut akan penilaian orang

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Kau tahu penghakiman Ya

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Kurasa mudah berkata

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Aku tak peduli kata orang

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tapi semua orang selalu peduli kau tahu Benar sekali

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Di lubuk hatinya

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Aku selalu merasa marah setiap orang terdekatku

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mencoba mengaturku atau apapun itu

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tapi mereka bahkan tak menyadari perbuatan mereka itu

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Ya

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Jadi di dunia yang sempurna ini di mana tak ada orang yang mengendalikanmu

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apa bedanya Apa yang berubah

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Semuanya

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Maksudku aku hanya ingin bisa melakukan apapun yang kumau

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karena itu membuatku merasa hidup

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Sebagai pertentangan bagiku untuk menjadi normal

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Apapun maksudnya itu

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Kurasa itu tak berarti banyak

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Kau tergolong aneh kau sadar itu

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Ya

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Apa itu pujian

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Entahlah Kau mau menjadi aneh

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Maksudku aku tak ingin seperti bocah ketakutan di taman atau semacamnya

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Aku senang bicara denganmu

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Biasanya aku malas mengeluarkan pendapatku

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atau perasaanku atau apapun

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Entahlah rasanya itu tak menarik Berkata kata adalah hal bodoh

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Lalu kenapa kau lakukan denganku

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Entahlah Kurasa aku merasa nyaman

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もっと出来る事があったと思うよ

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そして恐らくしたくもない事をしてた

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なぜしてたの

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ただ人の目が気になってただけだ

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人の見る目だ

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それって簡単に言えるまるで

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誰にどう思われようと気にしない

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でも皆気にするのその通り

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落ち込んじゃう

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自分の身近な人に怒りを感じてた

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自分をコントロールされてたり

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でも彼らはそれに気付いていない

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そうね

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完璧な世界ではあなたをコントロールする人はいない

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何が違う何が変わるの

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全てだ

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ただ自分がしたいようにしたいだけさ

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生きてるって感じるし

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ごく普通でいられるんだ

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それがどんな意味であれ

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別に意味はないさ

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あなたって変わってる

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そう

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それって褒め言葉

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どうかなあなた変人になりたい

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公園で子供を怖がらせたりはしたくない

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キミと話すのが好きだ

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いつも自分の考えや感じた事は

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あまり話さないんだ

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まともに聞こえなかったり言葉がバカげてて

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なぜ私なら試せる

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多分心地がいいからだ

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Я чувствую что есть так много вещей

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которые я мог бы сделать Я хочу но не делаю

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Почему нет

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Я думаю что это страх того что люди могут подумать

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Понимаешь их оценки Да

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Легко сказать Мне все равно что думают другие люди

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Но каждый заботится о чужом мнении Верно

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В фоновом режиме

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Я злюсь на многих людей с которыми я контактирую

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потому что мне кажется они управляют мной

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Но они даже не понимают что они это делают

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И в этом мире где никто не играет идеально

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в чем отличие людей друг от друга

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Любая вещь отличие Я просто хочу делать все что мне нужно

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Это заставляет меня чувствовать себя живым

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Вместо ощущения нормальности как говорят родители

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Что бы это ни значило

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Я думаю что это не так много значит

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Ты немного странный ты знаешь

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Это комплимент

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Я не знаю Круто быть странным

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Я не хочу пугать детей в парке типа того

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Мне нравится говорить с вами

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Я обычно стараюсь не признаваться в своих мыслях чувствах во всем

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Не хочу чтобы мои слова звучали глупо

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Почему ты пробуешь сказать это мне

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Я не знаю Я думаю потому что я чувствую себя комфортно с тобой

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Siento que hay tantas cosas que

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podría estar haciendo y que quisiera estar haciendo pero no hago

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Por qué no

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Creo que es por miedo a lo que pensará la gente

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Sabes los juicios Sí

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Es fácil decir No me importa lo que piensan los demás

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pero a todos le importa Así es

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En el fondo

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Me enfurezco con mucha gente con la que estoy en contacto

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porque me controlan o lo que sea pero

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ellos ni se dan cuenta de que lo hacen

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Y en este mundo perfecto donde nadie te controla

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Qué es diferente Qué cambia

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Todo Es que quiero hacer lo que sea que desee

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Eso me hace sentir vivo

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En lugar de darme la apariencia de normalidad

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Sea lo que sea

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No creo que sea mucho

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Eres un poco raro lo sabes

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Es un halago

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No sé Quieres ser raro

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No quiero asustar a niños en el parque o cosas así

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Me gusta hablar contigo

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No suelo tratar de vocalizar mis pensamientos sentimientos ni nada

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Nunca suena bien Las palabras son estúpidas

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Y por qué lo intentas conmigo

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No sé Creo que porque me siento cómodo

Available in 8 languages

Duration

96 seconds

Views

915

Timestamp in Movie

01:50:55

Uploaded

Feb 28, 2026

Genres

Production

Detour Filmproduction,IFC Productions

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Movie Summary

The film tells a story of a divorced couple trying to raise their young son. The story follows the boy for twelve years, from first grade at age 6 through 12th grade at age 17-18, and examines his relationship with his parents as he grows.

Actors

Mason

Sheena