I was a little boy and somebody made a shitty latch. That's what I think. That's what I...

Andrew Largeman: I was a little boy and somebody made a shitty latch. That's what I think. That's what I think about the whole thing, OK? And I'm not gonna take those drugs anymore, because they have left me completely fucking numb. I have felt so fucking numb to everything I have experienced in my life, OK? And for that... for that I'm here to forgive you. You've always said that all you wanted was for us to have whatever it is we wanted, right? Well, maybe, what Mom wanted more then anything is for it to all be over, and for me, what I want more then anything in the world, is for it to be OK with you for me to feel something again, even if it's pain. Gideon Largeman: Well, you're going against your doctor's recommendation, that a pretty weighty experiment to take on, don't you think? Andrew Largeman: This is my life, Dad, this is it. I spent 26 years waiting for something else to start, so, no, I don't think it's too much to take on, because it's everything there is. I see now it's all of it. You and I are gonna be OK, you know that, right? We may not be as happy as you always dreamed we would be, but for the first time let's just allow ourselves to be whatever it is we are and that will be better. OK? I think that will be better.

I'm gonna forgive myself for what I did. Are you ready? I was a little boy, and somebody made a shitty latch. That's what I think. That's what I think about the whole thing, okay? And I'm not gonna take those drugs anymore. They left me completely fuckin' numb. I have felt so fucking numb to everything I have experienced in my life, okay? And for that... For that, I'm here to forgive you. You always said all you wanted was for us to have whatever it is we wanted. Maybe what Mom wanted more than anything was for it to all be over. And for me... what I want more than anything in the world is for it to be okay with you... for me to feel something again. Even if it's pain. Well, you're going against your doctor's recommendation. That's a pretty weighty experiment to take on, don't you think? This is my life, Dad. This is it. I spent 26 years waiting for something else to start. So, no, no, I don't think it's too much to take on... because it's everything there is. I see now it's all there is. You and I are going to be okay. You know that, right? We may not be as happy as you always dreamed we would be, but... for the first time, let's just allow ourselves to be whatever it is we are. And that'll be better, okay? I think that'll be better. What are you thinking about? - You're not coming back, are you? - Come on, Sam. - Of course I am. - No, you're not. You don't realize this is good. This doesn't happen often. In your life, you know? I mean, this... We can work this stuff out. I want to help you, you know? We need each other. I haven't even lied in, like, two days. Is that true? - No. Look, this isn't... This isn't a conversation about this being over. It's... It's... I'm not puttin' a period at the end of this, you know? I'm puttin', like, an ellipsis on it. Because I'm-I'm worried that if I don't go figure myself out... if I don't go, like, land on my own two feet... then I'm gonna fuck this whole thing up, and this is too important. I gotta go. l... Gotta go. I fired my psychiatrist. I gotta go find a new one. Look, I'm gonna call you when I get there. I'm gonna call you. Look at me. Look at me.