The year Chris graduated high school, he bought the Datsun used and drove it...

Carine McCandless: [voice-over] The year Chris graduated high school, he bought the Datsun used and drove it cross-country. He stayed away most of the summer. As soon as I heard he was home, I ran into his room to talk to him. In California, he'd looked up some old family friends. He discovered that our parents' stories of how they fell in love and got married were calculated lies masking an ugly truth. When they met, Dad was already married. And even after Chris was born, Dad had had another son with his first wife, Marcia, to whom he was still legally married. This fact suddenly redefined Chris and me as bastard children. Dad's arrogance made him conveniently oblivious to the pain he caused. And Mom, in the shame and embarassment of a young mistress, became his accomplice in deceit. The fragility of crystal is not a weakness but a fineness. My parents understood that a fine crystal glass had to be cared for or it may be shattered. But when it came to my brother, they did not seem to know or care that their course of secret action brought the kind of devastation that could cut them. Their fraudulent marriage and our father's denial of his other son was, for Chris, a murder of every day's truth. He felt his whole life turn, like a river suddenly reversing the direction of its flow, suddenly running uphill. These revelations struck at the core of Chris' sense of identity. They made his entire childhood seem like fiction. Chris never told them he knew and made me promise silence, as well.

The year Chris graduated high school, he bought the Datsun used and drove it cross-country. He stayed away most of the summer. Come on. The neighbors are gonna be watching, honey. Can you spray it? As soon as I heard he was home, I ran into his room to talk to him. In California, he'd looked up some old family friends. He discovered that our parents' stories of how they fell in love and got married were calculated lies masking an ugly truth. When they met, Dad was already married. And even after Chris was born, Dad had had another son with his first wife, Marcia, to whom he was still legally married. This fact suddenly re-defined Chris and me as bastard children. Dad's arrogance made him conveniently oblivious to the pain he caused. And Mom, in the shame and embarrassment of a young mistress, became his accomplice in deceit. The fragility of crystal is not a weakness but a fineness. My parents understood that a fine crystal glass had to be cared for or it may be shattered. But when it came to my brother, they did not seem to know or care that their course of secret action brought the kind of devastation that could cut them. Their fraudulent marriage and our father's denial of this other son was, for Chris, a murder of every day's truth. He felt his whole life turn, like a river suddenly reversing the direction of its flow, suddenly running uphill. These revelations struck at the core of Chris' sense of identity. They made his entire childhood seem like fiction. Chris never told them he knew and made me promise silence, as well. I can't afford four. Who's gonna pay for the fourth one? Bryan can't afford four. Does it matter? Can I help you? Yeah. If I wanted to paddle down the river, where's the best place to launch out of? Hang on a second. "To launch out of?" What's your experience level? - Not much. - Any? Do you have a permit? A permit? Permit for what? You can't paddle down the river without a permit. If you want, you can apply for one here, get some experience, and I'll put you on the wait-list. No, I got this guy in here. We'll figure it out. There's a wait-list to paddle down a river? That's right. - Yeah, it's gonna be... - Well, how long do I have to wait? Yeah, hang on a second. Now, the deal is it's gonna be me and you or it's gonna be me, you and her. Next available is May 17th, 2003. Great. Done. The three of us, then. Twelve years? - What's that? - Twelve years? To paddle down a river. Let me call you back. You can do that, or you can join a commercial raft trip, go with a licensed guide. They may have some last-minute cancellations, but that's gonna cost you $2,000. Thank you very much. Helmet, man!