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PhilI'mI'm gonna try talk OkayAnd I'm trying toTo say something OkayDo you know Lily Phil Do you know herNoLily No I don'tOhShe's my love my life love of it YeahIn schoolI'm 12 years old in school in

Oh, yeah, yeah. Yeah. So I went to her school for that grade. Grade - that's grade twelve....

Magnolia • 1999

Earl Partridge:
Phil. Phil. Hey, Come here. Come here. Uh... Phil. I'm... I'm gonna try... talk. I'm gonna try to say something-something. Do you know Lily, Phil? Do you know her? Lily?Phil Parma:No, I don't.Earl Partridge:Oh, she's my love, my life, love of it. Y'know. In school... I'm twelve years old, in school, in sixth grade. I saw her. I didn't go to that school, but... uh... we met. My friend knew her. I said, uh... "What's that girl? How's that Lily?" "Oh, she's bad. She sleeps with guys." Yeah, he said this, but then sometimes... I went to another school, you see. But then... when high school - at an end. What is that when it gets to the end?Phil Parma:Graduation.Earl Partridge:No, no, the grade. What grade are you in?Phil Parma:That's 12th.Earl Partridge:Oh, yeah, yeah. Yeah. So I went to her school for that grade. Grade - that's grade twelve. And we meet. She was... fucking like a doll. A beautiful porcelain doll. And the hips, child-bearing hips, you know that? So, so beautiful. And I cheated on her... over and over and over again. Because I wanted to be a man. And I didn't want her to be a woman, you know? A smart, free person who was something! My fucking mind then. So stupid, that fucking mind! Stupid! Jesus Christ! What would I think, did I think for what I'd done? She was my wife for twenty-three years... and I went behind her over and over. Fucking asshole that I am. I'd go out and I'd fuck and I'd come home and get in her bed... and say... "I love you." This is Jack's mother. His mother, Lily. These two... that I had... and I lost. This is the regret that you make. This is the... regret that you make And the something you take And the blah, blah, blah, something, something. Gimme a cigarette. Mistakes like this... you don't make. Sometimes... you make some and OK. Not OK, sometimes, you make other ones. Know that you should do better. I loved Lily. I cheated on her. She was my wife for twenty-three years. And I have a son. And she has cancer. And I'm not there, and he's forced to take care of her. He's fourteen years old. To... to take care of his mother... and watch her die on him. A little kid, and I'm not there. And she does die

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Phil

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I'm

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I'm gonna try talk Okay

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And I'm trying to

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To say something Okay

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Do you know Lily Phil Do you know her

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No

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Lily No I don't

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Oh

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She's my love my life love of it Yeah

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In school

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I'm 12 years old in school in sixth grade

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I saw her

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Yeah I didn't go to that school but

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But uh we met

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Uh my friend knew her

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I said uh

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What's that girl How's that Lily

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Oh she's bad She sleeps with guys

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Yeah he said this but then sometimes

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And I went to another school you see

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Uh but then uh

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When high school at an end what's that

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What is that uh when it gets to the end Graduation

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No no the grade What grade are you in That's 12th

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Oh yeah Yeah

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Yeah So I went to her school for that grade

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That's grade 12

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And we meet

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She was

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fucking like a doll

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Yeah A beautiful porcelain doll

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And the hips

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The child bearing hips you know that

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So beautiful

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And I cheated on her

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over and over and over again

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because I wanted to be a man

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and I didn't want her to be a woman

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You know a smart free person

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who was something

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My fucking mind then

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So stupid that fucking mind Stupid

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Jesus Christ

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What would I think Did I think for what I'd done

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She was my wife for 23 years

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and I went behind her over and over

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Fucking asshole that I am I'd go out and I'd fuck

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and I'd come home and get in her bed

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أنا

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سأحاول الكلام

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سأحاول

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أن أقول شيئا

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أتعرف ليلي يا فيل أتعرفها

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كلا

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ليلي

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كلا لا أعرفها

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إنها حبي حياتي حب حياتي

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في المدرسة

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كنت في الثانية عشر من عمري في الصف السادس

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رأيتها

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لم أكن أرتاد تلك المدرسة

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لكننا تقابلنا

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صديقي كان يعرفها

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فقلت

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من هذه الفتاة كيف حال ليلي

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إنها شريرة وتنام مع الرجال

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هذا ما قاله لكن بعد ذلك ببعض الوقت

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إنتقلت إلى مدرسة أخرى أترى

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لكن بعد ذلك

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عند نهاية المدرسة الثانوية ماذا يدعى

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ماذا تدعى النهاية

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التخرج

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لا لا الصف ماذا يكون الصف

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الثاني عشر

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إذا إنتقلت إلى مدرستها بذلك الصف

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بالصف الثاني عشر

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وتقابلنا

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كانت

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أشبة بدمية لعينة

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دمية خزفية جميلة

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وساقيها

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سيقان الأطفال أتعرف ذلك

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أعرف

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بغاية الجمال

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وقد خنتها

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مرارا وتكرارا

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لأني كنت أريد أن أكون رجلا

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ولم أرد لها أن تكون إمرأة

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ذكية وحرة وأن تكون شيئا

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كان عقلي اللعين

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بغاية الغباء ذلك العقل

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غبي

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يا إلهي

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بم كنت أفكر

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هل فكرت فيما فعلت

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كانت زوجتي لثلاث وعشرون سنة

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وقد خنتها مرارا وتكرارا

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أنا وغد لعين

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كنت أخرج وأعبث

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ثم أعد للبيت لأنام بفراشها

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Je vais essayer de parler

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Tu sais j'essaie

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de dire quelque chose

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Tu connais Lily Tu la connais

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Non

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Lily

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Connais pas

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C'est mon amour toute ma vie

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A l'école

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J'avais 1 2 ans j'étais en sixième

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et je l'ai vue

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Je n'étais pas dans son école

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mais on s'est rencontrés

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Mon ami la connaissait

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Je lui ai dit

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C'est qui cette Lily

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Une salope elle couche avec les garçons

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Il a dit ça Mais il arrive que

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J'étais dans une autre école

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A la fin du lycée

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C'est quoi On appelle ça comment

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Le baccalauréat

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Non la classe La terminale

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J'ai fait cette classe dans son école

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La terminale

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On s'est rencontrés

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C'était

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une sacrée poupée

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Une belle poupée de porcelaine

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Et ses hanches

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Des hanches procréatrices

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Magnifiques

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Je l'ai trompée encore et encore

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et encore

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Pour être un homme

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Je ne voulais pas qu'elle soit une femme

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Une femme à la page libre

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quelqu'un

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Je pensais comme un con

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C'était débile de penser comme ça

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Bon Dieu

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Est ce que je pensais seulement à ce que je faisais

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Elle a été ma femme

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pendant 23 ans

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et je l'ai trompée à tire larigot

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Comme un connard je sortais

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en baiser d'autres et je rentrais la retrouver au lit

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Ich versuch mal

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zu reden Weißt du ich versuche

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was zu sagen

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Kennst du Lily Phil Kennst du sie Nein

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Lily

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Nein

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Sie ist die Liebe meines Lebens

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In der Schule

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Ich war 12 Jahre alt in der Schule In der 6 Klasse Hab sie gesehen

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Ich bin nicht in diese Schule gegangen

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Aber wir sind uns begegnet

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Mein Freund hat sie gekannt

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Hab gesagt

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Wer ist dieses Mädchen Wie ist diese Lily

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Sie ist schlecht Sie schläft mit Kerlen

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Das hat er gesagt Aber dann manchmal

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Und ich ging in eine andere Schule du verstehst

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Aber dann

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Als die Highschool zu Ende

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Was ist das Wenn sie zu Ende geht

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Abitur

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Nein die Klasse In welcher Klasse Zwölfte

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Also ging ich in dieser Klasse auf ihre Schule

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Das war die 12 Klasse

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Und wir haben uns kennen gelernt

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Sie war

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Wie eine Puppe

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Eine wunderschöne Porzellanpuppe

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Und die Hüften diese gebärfreudigen Hüften Kennst du so was

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So wunderschön

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Und ich hab sie betrogen

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Immer und immer wieder

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Weil ich ein Mann sein wollte

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Und nicht wollte dass sie sich als Frau gefällt

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Du weißt schon Ein kluger freier Mensch

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der etwas darstellt

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Mein verdammtes Denken

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Dieses dumme verdammte Denken

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Himmelherrgott

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Was hab ich mir dabei gedacht Hab ich mir überlegt was ich da tue

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Sie war meine Frau

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23 Jahre lang

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Und ich hab sie hintergangen Noch und noch

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So ein verdammtes Arschloch war ich Ging woanders hin und fickte

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und kam nach Hause und in ihr Bett

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und sagte

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Я хочу поговорить

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Мне надо многое сказать

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Ты знаешь Лили Фил Нет

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Ну Лили

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Нет я ее не знаю

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Она моя любовь моя жизнь любовь всей моей жизни

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Знаешь Еще в школе мне было 12

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Я был в 6 м

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когда увидел ее

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Я был из другой школы

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а тут увидел ее

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Мой друг ее знал

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Я спросил Кто такая

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Это значит Лили

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Она плохая

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Она спит с парнями

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Да он так и сказал

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А я потом часто крутился у ее школы

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А когда мы школу уже заканчивали

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Как этот класс называется Который последний

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Выпускной

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Какой у нас класс выпускной 12 й

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Да

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И я перешел в ее школу в ее класс

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Этот 12 й

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И мы с ней сошлись Она была

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как куколка фарфоровая

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Да Вся такая хрупкая

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И с такими детородными бедрами ну ты знаешь

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Знаю

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Да как не знать

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Красавица А я изменял ей напропалую

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и опять и снова и так без конца

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Потому что хотел быть мужчиной

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И хотел плевать на женщин

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Знаешь хотел быть себе хозяином

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так у меня были мозги перевернуты

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Глупые дурацкие мозги Глупый был

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Господи Иисусе О чем я думал

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Понимал ли что я делаю

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Она была моей женой целых 23 года

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И все это время я от нее гулял Каким же я был гадом

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Гулял трахал баб

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а потом приходил

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ложился с ней рядом и говорил

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Phil

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estoy

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lntentaré hablar Bien

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Y trato de

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Decir algo Bien

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Conoces a Lily Phil La conoces

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No

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Lily No

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Es mi amor mi vida el amor de mi vida Sí

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En la escuela

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tenía 12 años en el colegio sexto grado

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La vi

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Sí no iba a ese colegio pero

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Pero nos conocimos

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Mi amigo la conocía

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Dije

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Y esa chica Cómo es esa tal Lily

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Es una chica mala Se acuesta con tipos

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Dijo esto Pero de vez en cuando

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Me fui a otro colegio entiendes

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Pero luego

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Cuando terminó la secundaria qué es eso

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Qué es cuando termina La graduación

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No el año En qué año estás Duodécimo

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Sí sí

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Sí Fui a su colegio ese año

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Es el grado 12

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Y nos conocimos

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Era

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como una muñeca

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Sí Una hermosa muñeca de porcelana

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Y las caderas

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Esas caderas perfectas para dar a luz

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Tan hermosa

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Y la engañé

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una y otra vez

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porque quería ser hombre

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y no quería que ella fuera mujer

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Ya sabes inteligente un ser libre

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que fuera alguien

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Así pensaba yo entonces

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Tan tonto Esa mentalidad Estúpido

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Dios mío

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En qué pensaba Siquiera consideré lo que hacía

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Fue mi esposa 23 años

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y la engañé una y otra vez

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Imbécil que soy solía salir por sexo

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y regresaba a casa para meterme en su cama

Available in 6 languages

Duration

180 seconds

Views

28,097

Timestamp in Movie

02:09:01

Uploaded

Mar 13, 2026

Genres

Production

New Line Cinema,Ghoulardi Film Company

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Movie Summary

An epic mosaic of interrelated characters in search of love, forgiveness and meaning in the San Fernando Valley.

Actors

Earl Partridge

Phil Parma

Philip Seymour Hoffman