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How could I be responsible for another life

How could I be responsible for another life? Life terrifies me. It's harsh, and bleak,...

Pearl • 2022

Pearl: [Pearl imagining she's speaking to Howard] How could I be responsible for another life? Life terrifies me. It's harsh, and bleak, and draining. I was so relieved when it died.. it was one less weight keeping me here but then the war came and you left me too. Why did you leave me, Howard?
Pearl: ..I hate feeling like this. It's so pathetic.. Do people like you ever feel this way? Figure you don't.. seem so perfect all the time. Lord must have been generous to you. He never answers any of my prayers. I don't know why- what did I do? What is wrong with me? Please just tell me so I can get better- I don't wanna end up like mama I wanna be dancing up on the screen like the pretty girls in the pictures. I want what they have so badly.. to be perfect.. to be loved by as many people as possible to make up for all my time spent suffering.
Pearl: ..Sometimes I wake in the middle of the night and a fear washes over me 'cause what if this is it? What if this is right where I belong?.. I'm a failure.. I'm not pretty, or naturally pleasant, or friendly. I'm not smart, or funny, or confident. I'm exactly what mama said I was, weak. But I don't know why- what did I do? Why wasn't my family like yours? I hate what it feels like to be me and not you. I'm so scared that when you finally come home you'll see me and be frightened like everyone else is.
Pearl: I know what I've done.. Bad things. Terrible, awful, murderous things

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How could I be responsible for another life

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Life terrifies me

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It's harsh and bleak and draining

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I was so relieved when it died

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It was one less weight keeping me trapped here

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but then the war came and you left me too

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Why did you leave me Howard

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sniffles

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I hate feeling like this

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So pathetic

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Do people like you ever feel this way

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I figure you don't You seem so perfect all the time

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Lord must've been generous to you

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He never answers any of my prayers

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I don't know why What did I do

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What is wrong with me

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Please just tell me so maybe I can get better

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I don't want to end up like Mama

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I want to be dancing up on the screen like the pretty gals in the pictures

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I want what they have so badly to be perfect

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to be loved from as many people as possible

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to make up for all my time spent suffering

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Sometimes I wake in the middle of the night

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and the fear washes over me 'cause what if this is it

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What if this is right where I belong

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I'm a failure

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I'm not pretty

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or naturally pleasant or friendly

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I'm not smart

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or funny or confident

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I'm exactly what Mama said I was weak

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I don't know why What did I do

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Why wasn't my family like yours

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I hate what it feels like to be me and not you

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I'm so scared that when you finally come home

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you'll see me and be frightened like everyone else is

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I know what I've done

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the bad things

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terrible awful murderous things

Duration

128 seconds

Views

171

Timestamp in Movie

01:21:29

Uploaded

Apr 27, 2025

Genres

Production

A24,Little Lamb Productions

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Movie Summary

Backstory on how Pearl became the person she was.