Well, all you wantis to feel something, so you jerk off, butin those early days, the...

Well, all you want
is to feel something, so you jerk off, but
in those early days, the hormones made cumming
on my own feel impossible, and suddenly, I had lost
this entire part of myself that made me feel okay,
that made me feel alive even at times when I
wasn't sure I wanted to be, and it was scary,
and it was lonely, and then one day years later,
somehow without realizing it, I had started looking
more the way I wanted to, more like an after
pic than a before