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I remember kinda looking up, wanting it to end
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I remember kinda lookingup, wanting it to end and just feeling so dirty

Rewind • 2019
I remember kinda looking
up, wanting it to end and just feeling so dirty

Full Transcript

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I remember kinda looking up, wanting it to end
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and
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just feeling so dirty.
Duration
11 seconds
Views
26
Timestamp in Movie
00:39:58
Uploaded
Jun 10, 2025
Genres
documentary, biography, drama
Production
FilmRise, Cedar Creek Productions

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Movie Summary

Digging through the vast collection of his father's home videos, a young man reconstructs the unthinkable story of his boyhood and exposes vile abuse passed through generations.
- They did the same things because, yeah, - Rewind 00:09
- They did the same things because, yeah,
- What he did was his distorted idea - Rewind 00:07
- What he did was his distorted idea
We really had this loving relationship - Rewind 00:06
We really had this loving relationship
But Howard, on the other hand, to me, - Rewind 00:06
But Howard, on the other hand, to me,
I think for Howard it was just an act of dominance. - Rewind 00:04
I think for Howard it was just an act of dominance.
"I will make you know that I am the boss." - Rewind 00:08
"I will make you know that I am the boss."
- Would you please stay tuned - Rewind 00:05
- Would you please stay tuned
I can't any longer, but I've got to be here - Rewind 00:04
I can't any longer, but I've got to be here
You people, you can get up - Rewind 00:05
You people, you can get up
I can't, I'm stuck here with all these insane individuals - Rewind 00:10
I can't, I'm stuck here with all these insane indi...
- I remember Dr. Lustig put us on speakerphone - Rewind 00:06
- I remember Dr. Lustig put us on speakerphone
Dad answered and you told him that Howard had hurt you - Rewind 00:15
Dad answered and you told him that Howard had hurt you
That was the first time that your father made any reference - Rewind 00:12
That was the first time that your father made any reference
In all of this, before we were married, - Rewind 00:16
In all of this, before we were married,
In all of this, you becoming suicidal - Rewind 00:25
In all of this, you becoming suicidal
I just wanted to crawl into a deep hole - Rewind 00:07
I just wanted to crawl into a deep hole
For a while I was suicidal, - Rewind 00:15
For a while I was suicidal,
- Larry, he confessed - Rewind 00:06
- Larry, he confessed
Six days later we end up tracking Stewart. - Rewind 00:04
Six days later we end up tracking Stewart.
- Now we charged Larry early February. - Rewind 00:04
- Now we charged Larry early February.