Who am I? I had such a profound reaction to the filmmaking and went back and saw the film...

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Steven Spielberg: I started making movies when I was a young kid. But, I remember the time I almost gave up my dream of being a movie director. I must have been 16. A movie came into town called, "Lawrence of Arabia". And everybody was talking about it. I never sat in a fancy theater seat before. Premium ticket price. 70mm projection. Stereophonic sound. And when the film was over, I wanted to not be a director anymore. Because, the bar was too high. There's a scene where he looked at himself in that sword-knife. When he was first given the robes and he thought he was alone and he walked around laughing and looking at his shadow where the diaphanous robe he was holding out was actually imprinted on the sand and shadow. It was a great moment. And then later when they rout the retreating Turks, you seem him again, covered in gore, and he's got the knife in the same position he had it in his pristine days, in his glory days, and he's looking at himself - who he's become. It was the first time seeing a movie I realize that there are themes that aren't narrative story themes, they are themes that are character themes, that are personal themes. That David Lean created a portraiture, surrounding the portrait with a mural of scope and epic action. But, at the heart and core of "Lawrence of Arabia" is: who am I? I had such a profound reaction to the filmmaking and went back and saw the film a week later. I saw the film a week after that. And I saw the film a week after that. And I realized that there was no going back. That this was going to be what I was going to do or I was going to die trying. But, this *was* going to be the rest of my life