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Uhm, this isn't what I wanted. This was never a choice. You know, this is like
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Uhm, this isn't what I wanted.This was never a choice.You know, this is like

Uhm, this isn't what I wanted.
This was never a choice.
You know, this is like

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Uhm, this isn't what I wanted. This was never a choice. You know, this is like...
Duration
5 seconds
Views
44
Timestamp in Movie
00:09:52
Uploaded
Jun 23, 2025
Genres
documentary, comedy, crime
Production
Storystream Creative

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Movie Summary

In the summer of 2015, former US Marine and world record weightlifter Matt "Kroc" Kroczaleski was publicly outed as being transgender.
It's either this or be miserable, you know, forever, and, uhm... - Transformer 00:05
It's either this or be miserable, you know, forever, an...
You know, at one point it drove me to consider suicide, and - Transformer 00:09
You know, at one point it drove me to consider suicide, and
Testicular cancer, ironically, and I remember thinking, - Transformer 00:11
Testicular cancer, ironically, and I remember thinking,
That's how overwhelming - Transformer 00:06
That's how overwhelming
You're very physical, I mean, - Transformer 00:15
You're very physical, I mean,
Yeah, and thank you. [chuckles] - Transformer 00:08
Yeah, and thank you. [chuckles]
[Janae] The hardest thing with my failed - Transformer 00:16
[Janae] The hardest thing with my failed
They're a hundred percent supportive. I mean, they've been telling me for years, - Transformer 00:13
They're a hundred percent supportive. I mean, they'...
You know, and for them to say, "Hey, go do your thing" - Transformer 00:09
You know, and for them to say, "Hey, go do your thing&q...
[electronic music] - Transformer 00:08
[electronic music]
[Matt] At first, you know, the attempt to transition was just - Transformer 00:06
[Matt] At first, you know, the attempt to transition was jus...
In my most recent attempt last year, I had dropped my lifting weight back - Transformer 00:09
In my most recent attempt last year, I had dropped my liftin...
After that, I came back, and I got bigger than I'd ever been. - Transformer 00:04
After that, I came back, and I got bigger than I'd ever...
For me, to be the woman that I want to be in appearance - Transformer 00:07
For me, to be the woman that I want to be in appearance
I don't think I am comfortable as an extremely muscular woman, - Transformer 00:10
I don't think I am comfortable as an extremely muscular...
Garret, can you do it today? - Transformer 00:05
Garret, can you do it today?
Tonight, I'm gonna go out to a club and stay out. You guys wanna come? - Transformer 00:05
Tonight, I'm gonna go out to a club and stay out. You g...
[laughter] - Transformer 00:06
[laughter]
-I don't know. -I know, that... [chuckles] - Transformer 00:07
-I don't know. -I know, that... [chuckles]
It was running really smooth, but then it was bogging when I'd open all the way up, - Transformer 00:06
It was running really smooth, but then it was bogging when I...